(2/3rds title references to Rocky Horror Picture Show. Good on me.)
I realised today that I wanted to go home. Home to the Religio Romana. Yesterday I kinda ragged on reconstructionism and RR a bit; but I don’t take it back. I have some issues with the strict orthopraxy of the Religio, but at the same time I’m going to appreciate the intellectual and philosophical freedom which allows me to be a Reform Jew, cultor Deorum, and member (I think?) of the Ekklesia Antinoou all at the same time. I’ve been a lot of different religions over the years, and I think I’ve been a cultor for the longest cumulative period of time. It isn’t perfect, but it’s home in many ways.
The benefits of going back to the Religio now is that I don’t have to rely on it for everything anymore. I can go to temple on Shabbat if I want congregational worship. I can worship in the tradition of the Ekklesia Antinoou if I want to worship a beloved god but not be so uptight about it. And for when I want to be uptight and ritualistic (to put it lightly), I’ll have the Religio there for me.
I like to think I’ve constructed a complete religious identity now, one which basically fulfills all of my needs without contradicting myself — a coherent cosmology and theology, a solid bed of solitary ritual practice, and a congregational community element for when/if I get lonely. I might be adding different bits and pieces later on, such as Demonolatry and Thelema, pending more research into those elements. It’s a brave new spiritual world for me, and I’m excited to see where I end up.